Last night, I sat on my bed, my back propped uncomfortably against the cold blue-gray wall of my bedroom. Inches from me was the girl who has not just stolen my heart, but made it swell larger than I ever thought possible. All two and a half feet, with piercing blue eyes, an infectious smile, and curly blonde hair that seems to mimic her orneriness. She fell asleep with her whole hand wrapped tightly around my left thumb. I didn’t dare move it. So, I sat still, with my Macbook on my lap and headphones in my ears, giggling silently at silly YouTube clips. The room was dark, the fan lifting her curls from her forehead. While she had somehow managed to claim all but a sliver of my queen sized bed, all I could think is that I never want this moment to end.
Love you, Lolo. <3
Who hasn’t had this moment in a relationship? Lol.
|1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?||yes||2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?||I don't think so.||3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?||Today||4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?||Always||5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?||Nope.||6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?||Yes.||7. What exactly are you wearing right now?||Pjs.||8. How often do you listen to music?||Every day...||9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?||Ugh. Sweats. Unless I leave the house--then it's jeans or slacks.||10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?||I know it will.||11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?||I'm introverted, but I crave friendship and company, so somewhere in between.||12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?||Yes.||13. What about ‘R’?||Not that I can remember.||14. Can you drive a stick shift?||Ha. No.||15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?||Unfortunately, yes.||16. Are you going out of town soon?||Define "soon." Probably.||17. When was the last time you cried?||Actually, I can't remember.||18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?||Yes.||19. If you could change your eye color, would you?||Sure. I'd love to have piercing blue eyes.||20. Is there a boy or girl who you would do absolutely everything for?||My niece.||21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.||I wasn't productive.||22. Is it cute when guys (or girls) kiss you on your forehead?||Occasionally.||23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?||Lol. No.||24. What are you sitting on right now?||My bed.||25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?||Yes.||26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?||Yes.||27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?||My mom.||28. Do you get a lot of colds?||Eh, more like a mild perpetual one. But bad colds usually happen to me once every major season change.||29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?||Old Navy.||30. Does anyone hate you?||I'm sure there is someone who does.||31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?||No. What's the point of hiding EMPTY ones?||32. Do you like watching scary movies?||Sometimes. As long as they are suspenseful and not just gory.||33. Do you want your tongue pierced?||Not personally.||34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?||Probably sophomore year of high school.||35. Did you have a dream last night?||I don't remember.||36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?||Tonight.||37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?||Doubtful, but never say never.||38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?||Yes.||39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?||Maybe.||40. Did you have a good day yesterday?||Yes.||41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?||No.||42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?||Yes.||43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?||Yes.||44. What’s the best part about school?||It challenges everything I believe in.||45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?||Yes.||46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?||Not since middle school.||47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?||Yeah, sometimes. If something went wrong.||48. Were you single over the last summer?||Officially, yes. Mentally, no.||49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?||Yes, except things are finally starting to happen for me in big ways now.||50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?||I should be sleeping.||51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?||No.||52. Are you nice to everyone?||I try to be nice to everyone.||53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?||Yes.||54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?||I know I can.||55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?||It depends on the feelings.||56. Do you think you like someone?||Not seriously.||57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?||Yes.||58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?||Women.||59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?||Yes.||60. Do you hate anyone?||No. That's a waste of energy.||61. How’s your heart?||Ready.||62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?||Yes.||63. Have you ever cried over a guy?||A guy? Not that I know of.||64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?||It would not be smart to name anyone, but the truth is the most damaging things that might be said about me right now are the ones that are truth, not crap.||65. Are your toenails painted pink?||No.||66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?||I hope not. Lol.||67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?||I don't know. I don't love it when girlfriends do.||68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?||No.||69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?||Mary.||70. How do you look right now?||Tired.||71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?||Yes.||72. Can you commit to one person?||Yes.||73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?||No, actually.||74. Have you ever felt replaced?||Yes.||75. Did you wake up cranky?||No.||76. Are you a jealous person?||I can be.||77. Are relationships ever worth it?||Absolutely.||78. Anyone you’re giving up on?||No.||79. Currently wanting to see anyone?||Sure.||80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?||Read.||81. Last person you cried in front of?||I can't remember.||82. Is there someone you will never forget?||There are many people I will never forget.||83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?||Yes.||84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?||Laughing.||85. Are you over your past?||As much as anyone ever is.||86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?||Not of the opposite sex. Of the same sex? Sure.||87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?||Yes.||88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?||There would be no need for apologies or presents.||89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?||Yeah.||90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?||Yes.||91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?||No clue.||92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?||No.||93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?||No.||94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?||No.||95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?||I have no idea.||96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?||Eh.||97. Who do you have texts from?||Friends, classmates, family.||98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?||We'll see.||99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?||Yes.||100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?||No one.||101. Ever kissed under fireworks?||I don't think so.||102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?||Yes.|
I like doing big romantic gestures, but now when I get the urge, there is no one to do them for. Time to fall in love again :-)
Most of them ended up being ones I told to myself.